Almost 100 days

I finally remember my account password ! Its been so long since I am here but not because I am lazy but because I forget my password....finally....

So much things have happened in my life lately that I dont know where to start with anymore.....but what really trigger my urge to write is that is almost 100 days soon but still is so hard to get over the fact. WHY ? WHY u always give all you trouble to everyone's else ? why must the family always the one that help you to pick up the mess? Why u never ever think about us instead of u ?

Do you know she again lost control and threaten to suicide again ? She even told her gugu that she wants the kids to follow. Do you seriously love her so much to bring her with you ? Do you seriously think this is better for the kids ? U so selfish as ever.....

Today her gugu text me and tell me that she knows that we really dote on her too.....but do u know how much we hate her too? I know she is not entirely to be blamed but we just stop the feeling. If the one that died is her.....her family will have treat us like enemy. Just like how they treat Dad last time....how much pain and guilt he went thru and u fucker let him go thru all these again....u know the image of him signing on your death cert keep hurting me....can u imagine how he felt at the moment ??

U never cos u always put yrself in front of dad. U such an idiot ! U not worth thinking of at all.

I wish you happiness

Is so hard to see you being happy when I am in pain. But is even harder to see you being sad and being in pain. I rather chose the route that at least once of us is smiling.

Kiss & tell

Somehow I know the sunshine girl will know who I am talking about ...and I kind of wonder if the latest fb profile that she post is also related to the same topic.



There are no man reading my blog I guess but if you are a man and you are reading this..I want to let you know that Kiss and Tell is totally unacceptable ! Especially if you broadcast to the whole world the name ! It is so uncool, it is so childish and unacceptable. Whatever your reason of doing that act maybe, even if that woman is a slut, is totally uncool !



Did it occur to you that a ladies sexual reputation is very important to them ? Did it occur to you that it is as impt as your abilities reputation ?



I kind of pity the girl who is involve. I am not sure why did she act and "run away and hide" but guess maybe she regret her action...and seriously I think she should cos in the first place, she shouldnt be kissing a totally childish and uncool man.

Are we complaining too much?

Today I read a blog of my friend which comment abt pp complaining too much...hmm true, sometimes we complain non stop abt our life without thinking that most of the time we are lucky. People complain for various reasons, maybe they need to vent out their frustration, maybe they need to seek attention, maybe they always think that they are smarter than ours, maybe they just lost.

I have an ex-colleague that always complain non stop. Sometimes during a lunch she can repeatly talk abt how bad the food is ...almostg 3 -4 times thru the hour, or she can repeat how silly her boss was to a few of us. I always tell her that she complained too much that is boring us...and her excuses is she need to vent her frustration. But actually complaining can also make it worst. The more you talk about it, the more you feel that you are right ! and sometimes pp hearing your complain might add things or comments that affect the situation even more.

Now I have an colleague that dont complain at all :D No matter what happen, she just bear with it and continue like all those things dont affect her. Sometimes when I feel like talking/complaining, I will feel shy to tell her since she is so collected.

And guess what....in my old company, I feel that I am like my ex-colleague. I saw myself being the pain in the neck. And now......i think soon I might just work and dont complain so much....hahahaha.....is strange how we meet people in different stage of our life to reflect ourself and remains us on who we really are??

I guess that why they say we meet everyone for a reason :)

Testing testing 123

Sorry all, I have not been blogging. U know why ? I have totally forgotten my password :P
well not going to blog today as i am so tired but maybe i will forget my password again?? wahahaha

What we really want in life.....?

Sometimes when I sit down, I start to think. Think about what I have went through these few years. I always look at my past but someone told me dont even peep. Just move on and dont look back. But actually by looking back, it help me to be a better person.



I was all along lucky especially at work. Most of the times, my bosses like me because I am willing to learn, work hard and I am someone that has lot of ideas to get thing done. But I do have an attitude problem I guess. I will disagree with my boss if I think he is not right, I will sometimes refuse to listen if I feel that they are only wasting my time. I even quarrelled once with my MD and told him that yes I am thinking of resigning.....I was so closed, so closed to being fired by him. I guess maybe he cant find a good reason to fire me so I was saved!



I had quite an interesting period last 2 years. Especially when I started to play Human pets and know so many online friends in there. From there, U get to know a lot of peoples that are somehow "lost" in their real life. Is true, the right word is lost....which is why most of us spend a lot of time online chatting with strangers/friends to find our light and also our soulmates that understand how we feel even when we dont know each other.



Is strange how we can just say out all our feeling to people that we never met but yet we cant tell someone how we feel when they are besides us. From there, we also fall in love ....fall in love with people that we imagine they are and also fall in love with people that make us change somehow.



I am now quite a different person from what I was and I must say I like it this way. But I do feel strange sometimes, feel that I am not me. It made me freak out too.

Right now, I feel so bored and unsure if this is the type of life I want. But yet I cant answer to myself what I really want as well. Can you ?

I was watching a movie on Friday, there is a line that they quoted from Gandi " Nearly everything you do is of no importance, but it is important that you do it."

Moonlight shining on me

Today is the moon cake festival which mean is the Lunar August and 15th day. On this day, usually the kids will take out their lantern and play, all of us will eat mooncake with tea. Sometimes, we will also eat pomelo which I love.

My friends were just laughing at the fact that I dislike all festival & actually I only like Mooncake festival. I will tell u all later in my future blogs why i dislike the other festive season since I will explain why I Mooncake festival. I guess maybe because I like moon, I love to eat mooncake and also I like to see the light from the lantern ? Besides, they always say there is a goddess staying inside the moon with a bunny. There was a very touching love story behind it hence to remember the moon, we celebrate this festival.

As I am a rabbit sign, they said if I pray to the moon on this day, I will be blessed with love. :) Last 3 years I have been praying but always found out later I was just praying to the reflection (LOL) since my block cant allow me to see the moon. BUT this year, I finally got to see the moon and pray to her....

In fact, I always talked to her as she know exactly how i feel and think.....dont think I am crazy but this is the way I always do...talk to the Goddess in the moon....hahahaha

What have I prayed for ??? hee hee secret lah cant tell u all ;P